9 June genap umur saya 35 tahun. 35 tahun perjalanan hidup mengajar saya tentang kehidupan namun perjalanan masih panjang dan banyak yang perlu dipelajari. Pastinya saya masih kurang ilmu keibuan and familyhood.
Wondering what I had contribute to my family. had I done the best for them?. I hope I did, when they really need my help. In their good time when I can't joint them, hope it can be excused but in their bad times when they need me, I hope I will never miss to be there giving my hand to help them. Did my contribution can be appreciated by them ? not too sure as the level of acceptance and satisfaction can only be judged by those who received it not by me who is giving it. What they said about what I had given to them is not a matter. What they say about me is not a matter. The most important thing that I will do the best for them. I got cranky or upset and telling them what it should be, it just my words that want the best for my siblings. I don't care means I don't love. The noise that I made is because I love them.
I just want that all my siblings are known for their high level of responsibility, spirit and brain. Because all these will make my parents proud of what they have. I acknowledged my weaknesses and others too but we must try the best to overcome it. We must always go forward for improvement.
Wondering also, had i become a good mother and wife to my daughter and husband?. I don't but hope they will give me a room to improve. I need a guidance from the experienced so that I will become the dream mother by all kids and husband.
Ya Allah, beri aku petunjuk serta kebaikan dan lindungi ibu, ayah, suami, anak dan adik-adik ku dari segala kekurangan dan keburukan. Berikan kami kemudahan, kesenangan dalam menjalani kehidupan ini. Murahkan rezeki kami dan lorongkanlah kami ke jalan kebenaran dan kebaikan. Bukakanlah hatiku, suamiku serta anakku untuk mendekatiMu. Sesungguhnya hanyaEngkaulah tempat Kami memohon dan sesungguhNya Engkau maha memakbulkan doa hambaMu. Aminnn...
Itulah doa harian ku selepas sembahyang. Semoga doaku dimakbulkan.
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