Hidup Kita Hanya Pinjaman

Saya baru pulang menziarahi sepupu suami saya yang sedang dalam keadaan kritikal di serang sakit jantung. Pada umurnya di awal 40 an, dia telah mendapat serangan jantung. Kesian dan sedih melihat nasib anak-anak dan isterinya. Inilah yang dikatakan kehidupan kita di dunia ini hanya pinjaman. Bila-bila masa sahaja Tuhan menguji, mengambil hakNya. Kita ini sebenarnya hanya meminjam darinya.
Semoga Tuhan memberi perlindungan kepadanya dan keluarganya.

Confuse

Kekadang tak faham dengan senario kerja sekarang. Paling tak faham bila dikatakan tak beri updates sedangkan baru last week hantar. Adakah tidak aware atau sengaja nak create unawareness sebab nak tunjuk orang bawah tak buat kerja. Paling tak faham tugas siapakah yang patut berhubung dengan tuan-tuan besar untuk mendapat penjelasan sebenar sesuatu projek?. Kalau orang atas tak boleh nak communicate dengan orang yang lebih atas, apakan lagi orang bawah nak bercakap dengan orang yang lebih atas dari orang atas. tak override ke namanya tu?. Adakah sistem kerja kita dari bawah ke atas atau dari atas ke bawah?. adakah orang bawah pergi keluar mencari business contact dan balik office suruh bos siapkan prposal paper ATAU bos yang keluar cari business contact dan balik suruh staff bawah iaitu executive ( person who supposed to execute certain task given by the superior) yang buat propsal paper?. Who should get better pay? the person who bring business in or the person who do execution work?How to be in the loop of business circle? Rasanya kena proactive ..contoh bila terdengar cerita... terus tanya dengan source...so you will get the latest updates...so tak yah susah-susah nak buat kerja suruh orang bawah pi tanya orang yang atas, atas....heran ya kenapa tuan-tuan atas tak buat kerja-kerja yang berulang?.. saya rasa sebabnya they always want to know the uppdates from the source...they always want to be the one who knows everything rather than waiting others to feed information to them... Jangan salahkan orang lain bila orang atas tegur that you are not aware of certain project sebab tuan besar lain yang bawak business masuk dalam company...frankly... saya tidak mempunyai kebolehan seperti orang-orang atas yang mempunyai business contact dan komunikasi yang bagus dan saya juga tidak layak untuk jawatan besar seperti membawa business ke dalam syarikat tapi saya hanya mampu memberi full commitment terhadap execution work.

My littlegirl

It has been 4 months Shakira with us. It was a great experience seeing my daughter grown up. While updating my blog surprisingly she hummed Hafiz's song which I first time heard. She is now can sing Anuar Zain's song, I'm the lucky one when the cd turning on. She can also sing Kantoi even though she might not understand the meaning.
I feel so great when the teacher says she was a great girl at school in socializing, she's been so considerate with other friends and know how to make friends. I believed she learns a lot from the environment surroundings her.
Last sunday I brought her to a shelter home for orphans in Kanchong Darat. In that shelter home lives 16 orphans aged from 5 years oled to 10 years old. When she was there she was observing them reading books and playing together but without parents with them. She suddenly told me that she wants to go to school. Terharu sangat masa tu.
And then came Monday...macam biasa I sent her to school, surprisingly she did not cry....I believed the visit to the shelter home has given her some new lesson and experience. I will try to bring her to the place where she can learn from experience more frequent.
Today when I open her bag to check her homework, I found a purple teddy bear drawing says "I love you mummy & daddy so much, Happy parent's day"... I love you too Shakira.

The Memorable Week

It has been quite sometimes I did not update my blog. 15 April 2010, ermm.. was a date that I will never forget. How could I forget the date I met my favorite singer, Anuar Zain. Thanks to friends who gave me an opportunity to watch his grand performance and met him personally. He is a polish and charming person. His warm personality will melt every heart just how he touches every heart when he sings. He really got the charisma as a professional singer.
I adore him since I was in a primary school when he started his boom album of Kain Pelekat with Elina. I got the scrap book which my mom has thrown away when she cleaned up house. It was like a dream come true when I met him personally as it was my dream when I was in a primary school.
Luckily I got a very understanding and sporting husband who allows me to go for any of his events. He let me went to Anuar's concert at IB which was the best concert I ever attended besides Celine Dion. It was awesome. I wish Anuar will have another concert at IB or Philharmonic. Pak Zain must be proud of him. He must be inherited the warm personilty from Pak Zain. Congrats to pak Zain. Congrates to Anuar who never disappoint his fans' expectation. He performs like an international singer.

2010 - New series of Life Begins

January 2010 was the begining of a new stage of my life. My little daughter now stay with us for the first time after 4 years stayed with my parents. It was a sad moment when I heard that my mom has actually plan for her kindergarten, but I hope they can accept the fact Shakira has to stay with us.
It was a challenge for us when we have to change our priority in life and work. Those days, work comes first but now Shakira comes first. 6.00am I have to wake up just to get prepare my daughter's meal to school. My daughter is a little bit fussy and choosy with the food she ate. She did not simply eat what people serve, she will only choose what she wants to eat. So I got to prepare her food before send her to school.
The other challenge is to please her to go to the class and the day care. Pitty her has to be away from home the whole day, not like her stay with Nenek and Atuk where she was the circle of attention at home. Now 6.00p.m sharp I will leave office regardless I got work or not coz I got to be at my daughter's daycare before 7.00p.m. Anyway, I have to pay extra for the extra hour late pick up. The first three weeks at the day care she refuse to sleep in her bed during nap time, and refuse to go the day care after class. she always cried when I came to pick her up as she was the last at the day care.
Now, crying before she enter her class is just a habit, but progressively adapt to the schooling environment . Hence, she adapt very well at the day care. She is now sleeping in her own bed at the day care and laugh and smiles welcoming me during the pick up time in the evening.
I believe the time will come where she will understand the cycle of life better and the demand of changes in life. Ya Allah guide her to pass through her life at the best of hers and protect her from everything that is not good and healthy for her.

Pemberian Yang Sangat Berharga

Kehidupan di dunia adalah pemberian Tuhan yang paling berharga kerana kita diberi peluang menikmati pemberianNya.

Kita sebagai umat manusia wajib mensyukuri pemberianNya dan jangan sekali menyesali pemberianNya. Ada sesetengah orang merasakan kehidupan mereka serba kekurangan sedangkan mereka tidak menyedari akan kelebihan yang diberi, mereka sering melihat kepada kekurangan dan tidak pada kelebihan yang ada. Pada mereka yang dah senang, masih lagi tidak mensyukuri apa yang diberi malah menegeluh akan keadaan yang sedia ada.

Yang pasti kehidupan ini hanyalah pinjaman, tiba masanya nanti kita akan pulang ke pangkuanNya juga.

3 weeks a full time mother

It has been 3 weeks I become a full time mother. All this while I only see my daughter over the weekend. It was a challenging experience that really challenged me mentally and physically. However, it was fun to see my daughter's development at school, at home, socially and religiously. I am proud my daughter when I can hear she sings, listen to her reciting "doa makan", talking about school at home.

having her at home with me is another fun story to tell. Depends on her mood she can easily offering helps to do housework such as keep all dirty clothes into the laundry basket, throw rubbish into a dustbin, reminding everybody about the mess that should be tidy up (well, she actually did the mess but she will complaint like other people did) and she will do.

Staying with grandparents for such a long period has given an emotion effects to her actually after been separated for three weeks. She keep telling that she doesn't want to go to school because she said she wants to see nenek and damia. That was her reason that she gave me when I'm sending her to school. Nenek and atuk from afar look normal but deep in their heart they missed my daughter so much, same to my daughter. We try to bring her to see my grandparents once in a two weeks.

I hope the life become easier as she grows up.