DREAM AND HOPE

I always dream to have a medium size home that I can decorate as what I want. I always dream to have  home where there are few sections that can be used as family room, working room and guest room as well as prayer room. I always wish to have a proper store room with an organizer for easy trace. I wish I could have a rack in my working room so that I could organize my filing.

I missed to be creative.  When I was a kid I like to decorate my room. I still remember  I turned my baby bed  into a day sofa with pillow storage where I could sit on it. I remember that I used to transformed my room every 2 months just to have new ambiance of my room. I couldn't care whether my sister like t or not, as long as I like the changes I've made in my room.

Current? Is not that I am not happy with the current home. It just too messy, small and crowded. A situation where you feel suffocated . I just can't have "ketenangan" that I expect when I get a home. I get more stress with the mess I saw everyday. I'd rather stay outside.....I could get more "ketenangan" on the road by driving actually. That's why I am so happy with my current job as I could get my driving teraphy while driving to work.

By having my dream home I didn't say that I could get 100% happiness but at least there are some section that could give me some ketenangan. I used to live in an in order home, but now when I am not, I am redha, but praying so hard to be blessed been given a high level of patiens. and I feel so bersyukur because Allah gave me a lovely husband and daughter who has been very supportive. and because of them I am still here in my happy home. It is not their fault it just fate.

Sesungguhnya aku redha dengan pemberianMu tapi aku takut keredhaan ini akan menghilangkan keikhlasan di hati ini yang kemudiannya menjauhkan keberkatan yang Engkau berikan. Ya Allah tunjukkan aku jalan untuk aku mencapai impianku demi mengejar keberkatanMu ya Allah.

sarawak tea time

today we had tea ...with sarawak concept where everything we had were originated from sarawak even though we are at damansara perdana. laksa sarawak, mee kolok sarawak, kopi sarawak and sarawak cham. those drinks were awesome.....

CHANGES

In life we're facing changes and I'm facing a bigger changes now. After 8 years working in the same company, now I think I should make a change in life for goods. Maybe some people thought that changes might not the right step but for me if I don't do now I will never do and will remain the same. It was a hard decision to make in the first place, but once I've decided then I feel so relief and redha with the decision I've made. Now I'm preparing and equipping  myself for the new changes. Thanks to doctor Reyhana who had me realize that I required some changes in my life in order to make me happy and in the same time may balance the family needs. I pray to Allah to bless my decision. Looking forward to a new challenges in work with a new working environment.